temptations are really getting to me.

its all your fault. gawd. why did you have to be so nice and handsome?~!!!

ish. hahahaah! doesnt sound like me at all! arghh.

will tell you guys more soon.

love you! bye!

Joyce

GOSH.

guess what. i'm confined to a four hour study session everyday. but. i think its good for me. hehe.

or rather i'm going to think its good for me. hahaha!

but in a way. when i study and off my phone, four hours seem like half an hour! weird right?
dad calls it focus. i call it switching off from the world.

NEEDS when studying:
1.silence
2. water
3.cookies
4. clock

those things. are needed. if their not there, i wont be able to survive four hours. hehe.

i miss having the freedom to be online all day. argh.

i will be like that again. just wait. once 13th oct is over. hmmpppffffrrrt.

i'll be back woman~~~!

haha! i miss him and you!

haha. take cares! god bless and good luck~!

just shutting down, and getting up,
joyce

One of the rare things.

I'm toast. T-O-A-S-T. i was all buttered up and ready but then the heat came and burnt me. sigh.

My results. lets not talk about it. makes me wanna run in a corner and hide from the world.

For the first time ever, my dad came to take my report card and it wasnt even my proudest moment. or his. grrrr.

Moving on. After taking my report card, came home. locked myself up and studied for three hours straight. no toilet breaks. then told dad bout tuition and i wanted to get stationary and some workbooks so we left the house early to Citymall. that place is not the place to go on weekends. its like a puddle of honey with ants. super jammed. my dad had to park outside. where the motorbikes were. LOL.

Tuition was okay. made a fool outta myself when i answered the question wrong twice. cant help myself from being sleepy and blur okay. ahahaha.

Youth Time! YAY. its like the only happy moment on that awful saturday. haha. I liked the sermon that Rev. Lee gave. it was something which left everyone thinking on where they stood with God. were they the lady with the silver coins, grateful for every penny and thanking and praising God, or were they the lost coin which made their parents worry and fret with every moment they sink deeper into their sins? it was interesting. He's a really good speaker. I think it runs in their blood because Calvin and Cathy are both really good talkative and fun people. hehe.
after youth was finished, Me Jess Eilvane and Jamie were having karaoke time in the AVA booth. ahahaha! We sang along to songs like: Catch Me by Demi Lovato, You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift, I Do Not Hook Up by Kelly Clarkson, No Surprise by Daughtry. it was sooooo much fun! ahhaha! we didnt care that we looked insane or slightly hysterical! haha!

And because of my bad grades, i can no longer join everyone else for yumcha. BOOHOO.. argh. but i will score better next time and earn back my trust from my parents and i assure you people that i will be back for yumcha! SOON! ahhaah!

I got my new schedule for class. all i have to say is THANK GOD THERE IS NO MORE ART CLASSES~! hehe.

I took a blood test. my dad bought the kit. it went something like this.

Me Dad

Is this going to hurt?
No la. dont be a idiot.. i'm your dad i wouldnt hurt you la k?
hehe. okay dad.
you're still scared arent you? you lil coward.
no la.... maybe a bit.
okay. gimme your finger.
closes eyes. waits for pain.
~sound effect~ Taktak.
opens eyes and looks for blood. I didnt feel anything.
You see?! not pain wan la.
ERM dad. i think its because you didnt prick into my skin.
waht? oh. i used to finest needle. you've got thick skin. thats good.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH! no wonder i didnt feel anything.

My dad did it the second time. but yeah. it didnt hurt. and my sugar level is normal. just like any other kid. hehe. thank GOD!

Okays. anyways. the most important part of this post.

I will not be updating anytime soon due to my results and PMR. so sorry ya. hehe.

gtg study again. LOVE YOU LOTS INTERNETTT!!~~~~

i'll miss you more than ever now,
Joyce

My weakness is wednesdays.

This morning woke up at 6.35. my dad woke me up. was like scrambling for my uniform. halfway through wearing it. I realized. oh craperoos! its wednesday! I have PE!!!!!

Ran downstairs to get my PE clothes. ran upstairs to get ready and get my bag packed. threw in whatever subject books i had in sight and could find. bloody hell.

went to school just in time before the prefects started being meanies. arrived in school. phew............. 6.55. thank GOD! :D

arrived in school with funny hair. i had all my hair clipped and tied back. didnt have time for grooming myself in the morning. ahah.

played volleyball this morning. with marco, nickly, adrian, amalina, stacey, mahathir, safirin and megan. ahah. it was fun. tho marco as usual was a show off with how hard and far he could hit the ball, made us run like crazy to get it to avoid casualties. he's so irritating sometimes. but other than that, playing volleyball with them was fun. i love volleyball. i used to hate it cause it hurt. not so much anymore. it throbs sometimes but now it rarely happens unless i hit the ball the wrong way. hehe. me fault yo. haha.

bringing books to school today was such a waste. more than three thirds of school today was filled with intern teachers who just sat there and read books but well, it was kinda nice to sit in class and study and do homework and then chit chat with friends.

Pmr is coming close. argh. the pressure is on. its always been on but now its like double the dosage. argh.

Ce picked me up from school today. which was rare. ahaha. she stopped sending me to school and picking me up a few months ago. ahaha. but it was nice. i really appreciate it. hehe.

Hot Hot Hot day. argh. made me sleep after only half an hour of studies. GRRRR.

i think imma die of frustration.

oh. and imma post something soon. about someone. no not that guy. but a guy in my class.

i just found out today. sigh. and i thought i knew him. ahah.

chocolate makes me miss you,
joyce

farewell my friend....

Tuesday night was so fun! Jamie! You should have been there! i know you couldnt but i wish you were! BLEH! (aiks. i got that from jess) teehee.

As usual, before i get out of the house, things that I have to do come popping out of thin air. its so murphy's law. argh.

once i got things settled and got the files into place, straight away Edrea calls and says: i'm outside your house already. I'm like: phew. just in time.

Got into the car with Edrea and Elden. haha. was so excited but acted like nothing was going on. but inside i was so scared and anxious to see whether my gift was still with edrea and whether elden knew! On the way to the party, picked up Shuk Ling, Shuk Fen and Yock Yu, forgive me if i get the names wrong. hehe. Shuk Ling i recognized from passion conference way back last year around.... hey.... exactly a year ago! ahahah! i met her during the august holidays when we were having passion conference! Sigh. i miss that conference. met so many people i'm good with today.

so yeah. the car was so silent. its hard for me. for those who know me, i'm the type of person who follows moods very much. and when i'm happy and in a good mood, its hard to shut my gap so yeah it was torture to hold my silence for a good twenty minutes.

We kinda got lost at first. cause we couldnt find Vun Hau's house. but we found it at last. she has a really sweet house. its big but not too intimidating and very homey. but i guess thats her character anyhow. friendly, funny and nice. she's really nice. hehe. she's pretty too. haha!

I got there and the first thought in my mind was to write in my card and stick it onto Elden's gift. ahaha! I was writing and writing while looking out for Elden and people. and then halfway through, Edrea sat beside me and i got nervous cause well, when i'm writing and people are staring at what i'm writing i get really really nervous. haha. its normal. when i was done, Edrea wanted to read it so i called him nosey. and just as i said that, his brother passed by like a metre away staring at me and his brother. and me and ed were like, in shock. we just sat there like rocks. ahahahhaahhahaha. the gift was hidden but the card wasnt exactly hidden. then me and ed jsut burst out laughing. hahaaha! we were totally in shock!

Jess finally arrived. gosh. she was starting to make me nervous. she baked these fabulous chocolate cupcakes. their rich creamy and oh so addictive! ahha!

When we were all done with food, we sat down in a circle. and played this game called husband and wife. hahhaha. first couple of the night, ............ Max and Stephanie! ahha! it was funny cause. the 'husband' and 'wife' is blindfolded and then spun around three times. haah. and we the crowd had to guide them. the boys guided Max and girls guided Steph. it was funny how their really bad at listening to directions. i guess its really hard when you're blind and ten people are shouting different orders at you. haha! Next couple was Erica and Ronald. Erica as usual is always hesitant and stubborn. she had to take a few pushes to get her into playing. They played and actually bumped into each others forehead! SO cute! ahhahaah!

Third couple, or shall we say, third victim? ahah! Elden and cathy.

the trick here was we blindfolded Elden and kept yelling Cathy! Cathy! Cathy! to make Elden think we're calling cathy to play. but the truth was while we were yelling cathy!

Max, Ronald, Cathy and Lizzie were running into the kitchen to get whip cream! ahahaha! it was so funny! cause we were spinning him around and then we counted one two three! and we smothered him with cream! ahhah! Lizzie slapped him with cream! literally! his face, shirt and hair was covered in cream and he was laughing and trying to take off his blindfold and trying to chase us all! ahhaha! it was so fun!

when the fun turned down a bit, me jess and ed were just standing there talking bout it and laughing and Edrea was holding a can of whip cream so it went something like this.

Me Edrea Jess

I think I wanna splash your brothers hair with whip cream. gimme some.
Oh okay. just dont hit his eyes. he's wearing contacts.
I want some too! i didnt get him!
Oh okay. I'll join you guys too!

The moment me and jess got the whip cream. we looked at each other smiled and totally smothered Edrea with whip cream. Jess got his face and I got his hair! hahaha! He chased us both but didnt manage to get either of us! ahhahaha! so fun how me and jess are so in sync! hehe! i wove you babe!

Later that night, the cell leaders shared about Elden. He's smart, talented, caring, generous, humble and just a all round nice guy. and when ten people say that, it just proves how great this guy is. I think we, the Eklektos youths are really going to miss this amazing person when he leaves! but i think his future is so bright we're all going to need shades! His potential and his energy is going to take him far and i'm pretty sure of it that its all for God's glory. and i really admire that.

When it was time to go home, everyone took pictures of Elden and hugged him.

I gave him his present on the way home. we talked a bit. me ed and elden. i think its going to really different in church for me without the wise. he was one of the people that i first met in church and until now, he was one of my good buddies. without him there, is definitely going to be weird. heh.

haha. but i'll see him again in kl soon. so hahah.

winter nostalgia,
Joyce

terrible tuesday.

i had an okay day in school. wasnt exactly the best. was kinda bored actually.

first of all, we had only like 2 hours of class. and four hours of freedom. in which i only finished half of my homework and i slept like 10 minutes and the rest of the time i spent talking to dina, amalina, sai, iffa, maroline and marco. we talked about alot from clothes to boys to a rude person named bernard and all that.

i talked to iffa bout this. it seems. perhaps. i'm revealing myself a bit too much on my blog. so from now on, imma try to talk less bout private stuff. perhaps i should try not talking bout him so much. hehe. i'll try iffa. i'll try.

my school is soooo irresponsible. do they even know what a school is for?

school is a place where we learn and get our education. where we learn how to behave and everything. when we do something, teach and correct us.

but now, its just. do something wrong and get thrown outta school. this guy didnt do his homework and got expelled from school. and you expect the guy to succeed in life? please oh smart one tell me how?

i mean yeah. its possible he'll succeed but nowadays, you wont be able to get a decent job without spm or educational certs. its like. the headmaster has just lost his mind. i dunno how.

my mom went to kl. today. random and totally out of place. i know. LOL.

i dunno what to think of society today anymore. its just so disgusting.

friend of foe? i dunno. who you turn out to be. is only what i will be able to see.

hehe. see you!

partypooper,
joyce

MERDEKA!!

Today we had the independence day celebrations. was kinda weird cause very little people knew about it. and we aren't exactly the most patriotic people.

Silent Motion Crew was good although adding in the flag was kinda weird. ahahahah. it looked very much outta place. Iffa and Sai were screaming on the top of their lungs for Kamal. And she kept squeezing my fingers. hahahaha. so cute! she kept screaming! hahahah!

The traditional dance was well. good. i guess. its just the front girl. whats her name again iffa? zahir? or something. she smiled like crazy. like even cheerleaders dont smile that fake! she kept laughing to herself. it was weird. then halfway through the performance, the models fro project runway came down from the top room, we all screamed for natalie and law vuii and the poor girls on stage thought we were screaming for them. hahahahaha!

i liked the singing from rachel too. although i didnt understand nor recognize the song she was singing. her singing is really good.

poetry reading was sad. i mean. its a really meaningful poetry but i guess she didnt memorize it well. syahdatul is her name i think. she does the poetry reading all the time.

we patched up. i guess we're back to normal.

today was rather odd. i was sleepy and blur. ahaha. very blur.

anyways, gtg.

seeing him tmw perhaps? teehee.

all is fair in love and war,
Joyce

Yumcha. hehe.

steffi and her noodles. ahah!
the star of the night: ELDEN! :D
Taking pictures with adoring fans! ahah!
Yvonne and Evan posing for pictures!
Yvonne taking pictures of edrea while i took one of her! aahha!

15th August.

Its got to be one of the most awesome and tiring days of me life. excluding the sad and shocking part that came at the near end of the night.

I woke up at like. 7. due to the irritation of my two good friends megan and nicole. ahaha. they were so paranoid that i was gonna arrive late and so the non stop text messaging started right on the dot of 7am. i was all whiny cause it was saturday. waking up early on weekends arent exactly my thing. i'm not exactly a morning person. as people would know. hehe.

got to school at 7.35. five minutes late but, was still early la. haha.

went to do some stuff and then hung out with samuel and bryan. forgot how fun they are to tease and play with.

then..... the ice cream man called and said they were coming at 10. all of us were like OH NO!!!! the event starts at ten. puan carol was not a happy woman. and when the ice cream finally arrived. with one less helper. it was quite a mess. very rushed.

we sold alot of ice creams. thats all i know in describing the selling process. ahahahah! i now have a whole new respect for ice cream and hawkers on a busy day. they sure count and think fast. ahaha. if it were me. i would be doomed. ahahaha!

i even caused some drama for amalina and dina. it goes out to bernard who dare to call them Hoes. how dare he. ugly fag.

i left at 1. left kinda early cause my mom came early. so sorry nicole! for leaving you there with jarrel and the ice creams! hahah! sorryyyy!

anyhow. rushed to citymall to get stuff for someones farewell present. and then had a bite of lunch then straight to tuition. i was so sleepy but had to force myseldf to stay awake.

after tuition, went to karamunsing to get a gift for my friend. then bought some wrapping paper. attentionplease, if you intend to ask the helpers there to wrap the present for you, don't ask at all. i could have done a better job than them. argh.

got home at around 6.35. took a quick shower. ate a lil salad. and left for church at around 7.15. phew. got there just in time to chit chat. the moment i got off the car, jason and samuel were rushing forward to shake my hand. so competitive la the lil things. ahahahah! i shook both their hands. and hugged sherah and alicia. i walked in and saw edrea. haha! we were both wearing the same colour. Blue. and that was what everyone kept saying the whole night. hahaha!

My vid premiered! hahaha! me jamie and max made a church announcement video. i think i told you guys that a couple of weeks back. but anyhows, the response was great! everyone loved it! ahhahaha! so embarassing! ahhaha! there was a part where i said : oh shit! and vern edited it and made it so that it replayed three times! hhahaha! so bad! hahahaha!

kelvin preached. it was good. his english isnt as bad as he says it is. in fact, its pretty good. he talked about church for the people. very enlightening, it really struck me. that i and many others view church as a chore and not the way of life. so from now on, i wont be going to church as a chore but as time for me and God. :D

yumcha! ahahah! was fun as always. altho, didnt talk much to everyone due to some issues at hand. but all in all. me, edrea, evan, elden, yvonne and everyone else had fun.

it was interesting. how it ended. but all in all. i'm happy. :D

follow edrea: think positive! dont care about her! just be yourself!

thank you! i will be like that!

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over ~ Boys Like Girls

hahas,
joyce

would you believe me.

isn't weird how when your gut tells you to stop asking so many questions and yet you plunder through and not care about your gut instincts. and then. slap. the truth hits you right across your face and then you feel sad and broken down and you start to wonder why you even bothered to ask.

I have the tendency of doing that and hurting myself. and at times, i tell no one because its so retardedly stupid.

why did i ask? why did i bother? why did i care about your past? why didn't i just wait to find out? why didn't i just keep my curiosity to myself? why didn't i just hear it from you? why didn't i just stop my mind from wandering off and causing trouble? why didn't i? its cause i think i've lost my heart. and now i'm struggling at getting it back from la la land.

now. i know. she's pretty, smart, sociable, funny and athletic. everything i wish to be but am not.

i know i'm supposed to be secure and confident like i always am.

but hey. i'm only human.

i have weaknesses and soft spots too. i have issues too.

i asked. i got the answer. but. sadly, i dont like what i'm hearing. at all.

it breaks my heart. it was fine before i knew.

so what should i do?

should i give you up? because of my insecurity and nearly nonexistant self confidence?

or should i stick to you? because i have feelings for you like i've never had to no one and because i am me and i cant change me for no one?

my mom is angry because apparently, one of my aunts told her i know how to talk about boys. well, that upsets me. because if that is true, it just shows that someone likes to gossip and that makes me more aware and careful of what i say to them. i thought they were family and its okay. but apparently, its not so. apparently, i just have to not talk about anything to them. keep it small short and simple. now isnt that sad? all because i talk about boys. for God's sake, i'm a girl. i'm a teenage girl. i talk alot.

i talk about everything. from boys to clothes to politics to social events and things that are going on in every other teenagers life. i talk alot and that doesnt make me bad or a slut or anything bad. thats just me. okay. so i talk about boys. would you rather i talk about girls? would you?

it saddens me that they would actually gossip and say things like that behind my back. some kinda family eh.

it terrifies me to know that there is only 53 days to PMR. i'm confident but hey, cant help but be a worrywart.

i know i shouldnt say anything to him about it. but the topic just wont rest from my mind. he doesnt know that i know about his past. so its point blank direct that i shouldnt say anything but why do i feel like i should? why do i feel like i can? why do i feel like i'm going to bring it up anyways? why?

you know what really pisses me off. when people assume that i'm in a relationship with a guy just because i'm close with him. i mean. come on. what century are you living in?!?! so yeah. i hugged him. does that mean i'm in a relationship with all the guys in kl in church and in school and in social events? wow. then i must have more than 500 boyfriends by now. and hey i'm only fifteen.

geez. people. use your God given brain for just a moment.

i got number 24 in class. its the far fall from my usual number which is only one digit. my usual is 6 or 8. now its 24. how awesome.

i'm tired of feeling like this. i'm done.

feeling fuzzy,
Joyce

crash and burn you lil bit*h.

you're so hypnotising
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've get me smiling in my sleep
And i can see this unravling
And your love is where im falling
So please don't catch me ~ Demi Lovato


i dunno why. but there seems to be not only a flu spread but also a evil doing spread. its like the flu turns everyone, well not everyone, but a certain amount of people nuts. its like people cant get enough out of spreading lies and dissing other people. nobody is perfect and neither are you so who gave you the right to call nice people sluts? thats not only wrong its utterly disgusting.

argh. test results arent getting better. their good but not good enough. according to the book, ce mich gave me. good better best, make your good better and your better best. but its hard. this is hard. argh.

you know when people post pictures of you that arent pretty on facebook. i think its totally inappropriate to FORCE AND COMMAND them to take it off. its their facebook. they have a right and a choice to make whether they want to take it off or not. yeah, it might be embarrasing or ugly but hey, we all have some sometime. its their choice since they posted it up. you cant force people around. who do you think you are?. ish.

i like my class better this year. i think its cause we're all the same level. i mean. we arent that divided. we get along really well except the ahem ahem few. haha. and very few silent people. we're all crazy loud and we laugh alot. ahah. but when it comes to studies, we're all really cooperative. i prefer my classmates this year better than last year. last years class is still way too childish to know whats good and bad. the guys in the class are self conscious and act like sissies for fashion and wanna act all cool. the girls are all way too high pitched and sometimes break the rules just to fit in. its like. why cant you just be yourself? . i mean there are the few that i still am good friends with and thank god their mature enough to know the diff like karen and samuel but some of em are just so lost beyond recognition of their own doings.

i baked cookies for my sisters college fundraiser. she managed to get WWF aka World Wildlife Foundation to work with her to collect some funds for both WWF and her own college. its so cool. its a two day event. i wanted to cook food but settled with cookies. faster and easier. ahaha. thank wen yiing for giving some pastry to my sister too.

school was fun today. i sat with maroline, amalina, dina and marco. oh and nickly. ahah. spent the whole day talking. the weather was sooooooooooo hot. i was literally melting. i thank THE GOOD LORD FOR AIR CONDITIONING! hehe. that was how hot it was.

hehe. i think thats all. and oh. i dunno what to get his brother. but i think i should. ahah.

trying not to drown,
joyce

today. was. so. weird. ahahaha.

i woke up like ten minutes late but got to school just in time (awesome right?) for a lil chit chat before perhimpunan pagi which means morning assembly. which means just standing outside the classroom for national anthem, state anthem, and school anthem.

BUT TODAY. after state anthem, the announcements were made and then this guy said: please pass around the lyrics so we can all sing this very special song to kick off English Week. To our surprise, this special song was..................(drumroll)....................... THE CLIMB MILEY CYRUS!

girl guys me
omg. they want us to sing this song?
alamak. sing miley cyrus song? english club so terrible to us man.
well, at least its better than they ask us to sing 7 things la.
but but but. this song. so. weird la.
or even worse. the best of both worlds.
(shudders) okay la. this song is good.
i think its the only song i like from her.

all of us agree that the climb by miley cyrus is the only song we like from her. i mean. apart from nicole raoul, jessica kiing, eleen wong, yen ling, and chai. i think the rest of us pretty much dislike miley cyrus. ahah.

its such a weird song to pick from. i mean. for english week, and due to the current weather hazards like the haze and H1N1, you would think they would pick better songs like: Change The World by Michael Jackson or something but no. they picked the climb by miley cyrus. its a good song no doubt but not alot of people know that song. only the malays and english eds. the rest are left in the dust. sad o.

haha. my class sent me, chai, joshua, and akmal for a science quiz. totally forgot bout it. ahah. we went expecting the worst cause we couldnt care less about studying after trials and excel. but the teacher gave us a super simple crossword puzzle and a word search. we did it in pairs. me and akmal. josh and chai. me and akmal were the fastest to finish. but due to the teacher being so ooooooo 'smart'. she forgot to put in the last two words. melody and janice got first place instead of me and akmal. knowing me, i'm a very competitive person. i felt you know. frustrated that i didnt notify the teacher and get what i should have gotten. FIRST PLACE. but all in all, i learned something from the experience.

gina and maddie have this thing with me. i dunno. i just wanna say. i dunno. its not something i thought of. i've never seen him that way. i'm close to guys and yeah sometimes it seems like something more but it isnt really. i dunno. i'm in crossroads again. and it doesnt feel too good to make choices like these.

i heard rumours bout him and his break up from the perfect girl. haha. akmal says he admires him cause he's a all rounder. which sounded pretty weird when he said it but yeah. i admire him too. ahaha. hahahahahahaha.

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Everytime that you look at me __ Here We Go Again by Demi Lovato. okay je la.

cookies are my friend. i think thats why i'm fat. ahah.

missing you is the hardest part.
joyce

Michelle's 16th BDAY!

8th August, it was a good day. i woke up at around 7-7.15. got ready for rehearsal of music fest. well, my recommendation is: to malays, its gonna ROCK!!!!!!
to chinese, i'm sooooo sorryyy you bought tickets!
to english eds, erm. wait. i'll tell you.

The most played language in the festival is Malay. its all in all TOTAL ROCK MELAYU STYLE.
not that its bad. its cool. just not my style.

so, the chinese dudes aint gonna be too happy bought their money. haha.

English eds are gonna be glad but not happy. Ivy Loverline is singing Estrella which is really good. she sounds really good. i'm defo a fan. haha. Jones is singing everyone's all time favourite It's My Life by Bon Jovi. Jerry is singing Black and White by The King of POP Michael Jackson. their all good. i mean except for the fact that the malay stall dudes are singing my chemical romance which really sounds like a indon song. hahahaha!

okay. back to the topic.

arrived in mich's place at around. 11.45. cheryl was already there. having some fun with massage chair. that sounded wrong. ahahahahah. lia's influence. ahha.

minutes after i arrive, ckm arrives. he tried surprising her but epic fail, we could see him through the reflection of the computer screen. ahahaaha!

we watched 'Obsessed'. half way thru the movie, had lunch. cha sau sau rou rice. mich's mom bought it from the stall in foh sang. She waited an ENTIRE HOUR for them. i was like: uh oh. it better be some darn good rice man. hahah. it was good. ahha. was grateful for the food provided.

gina arrived with jan. we went for a swim. they went first i went in later. ahah. jan pulled me in. haahah.

after more than an hour of swimming and pictures and games, we all took a rush of taking showers and getting dressed for the party. this is why i hate wearing dresses. its soooo. painfully long. everybody has their own opinion. mich changed her dress four times. four. i was like. woah. hahah. in the end she wore the teal green and gold dress. suited her like a goddess. she looked really good. i bet ckm was one happy fella. ahaha.

the party was great altho i was stuck with melvay, izzat, nickly and jan for most of the party. i was kinda happy. because well, i didnt need to be anyone else with them. i was me. ahah. i'm more comfortable around guys then girls. haha.

nick and clement lee was there. they were loads of fun! Nick has the way of making everyone laugh without even trying. its his thing. haahha.

the fun kinda stopped when we were all being chased by mich's lil brother victor, he's 6 yrs old and is one helluuva of a monster! he got the idea of scooping up water with his cup and splashing it on everyone! even his sister! everyone was screaming, running for their lives! hahaha! and then, clement got smart! haha! he picked victor up when victor was scooping water and threw him in the pool! everybody was like. stop. what?. then, victor surfaced crying. all of us rushed over and comforted the kid. clement was like: i said i was gonna do it! hahahah. no remorse whatsoever. hhaha. but it was kinda cliche that he actually threw the kid in. woah. the guy had guts man. ahahhaha. respect was definitely earned. ahaha.

i went home at around 10.30. actually thought of joining nick and clement for yumcha with the youths at damai but decided not to risk having myself grounded. ahha.

thats about it. except for some evil doings of gina which i wish not say. haha. but yeah. all in all it was one great party!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!! I WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK WHEREVER, WHENEVER AND WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING!

for more pictures and info, please head onto facebook.com. haha. thats a commercial. ahaha.

laughing at irony,
joyce

Sporty Sunday

If yesterday is sporty sunday and i had fun, then today which was boring and hot makes it Mundane Monday right? hehe.

i had loads of fun yesterday. Edrea invited me for sports at Iramanis. the playground area. haha. I think yesterday was one of those days where i really felt like i was one of the Eklektos Youths. i mean. When i first joined them, it was really weird and hard for me because. everyone there knew everyone but i didnt know anyone. i was like a thorn among the roses. really. it felt like it. and you know me?! silence is my partner when in doubt. hehe. Elden and Jamie would know! hahahaha!

We played Baseball and basketball. Poor Oscar tripped and was bleeding. He has wounds on his knee, elbow and wrist. the worst part, today was his first day of school. i was like oh dear. ahahah. All the girls tried to make him feel better by sitting all around him and comsoling him by saying things like: dont cry oscar! its just a tiny wound! dont cry! BE a man! hahahaah! we weren't exactly consoling him. more like making ourselves feel better. haha. poor Oscar.

baseball was fun. well. it wasn't really baseball. more like. someone threw a ball, the other person hit it, another person picked it up. LOL! haha. but it was kinda fun cause we all kinda sucked. except for edrea. no fun la. he's so good. ahahahha.

Mandy kept going: I wanna take pics of you guys playing! so all of us play play play and at end all she said was: my camera sucks. ahahhahaha. we're like so you didnt take pics? her reply: erm. not really. LOL. ahhahaha.

I like spending time with these guys. their awesome.

school was usual. paranoia filled the hallways. boring teachers with boring subjects. did surprisingly okay for my exam. was well. surprised. haha.

anyways, gotta clean my room now. hmm. will post about mich's bday later. ahah. loads of stuff happenned. hahah.

loving him like usual,
joyce

the longest day of my life.

He is sensible and so incredible
and all my single friends are jealous
he says everything I need to hear and it's like
i couldn't asm for anything better
he opens up my door and i get into his car
and he says you look beautiful tonight
and i feel perfectly fine.

gosh. if he said that to me, i would probably say: say it again. hahahah!

Its finally friday. for some reason, this week took forever to end. haha. maybe its cause i've been just studying and thinking about the weekend too much.

this influenza is driving everyone up the wall. wearing mask, using hand sanitizers, forcing students with only a lil cough and fever to go home. i mean has it ever occured to the government to close down schools for a lil bit? just to clear the possibility of major spreads in educational environments? gosh. we're so weird.

you know? i've been reading alot of mags lately. and you know the horoscope part at the end of the mag? usually, well, if you know me well, i tend to say its bullcrap. total BS. but these past few months, its strangely accurately. by strangely accurate. i mean. strangely accurate. like. sometimes the way i feel and what i've done is being protrayed in that small little article. my reaction to it now is like: GASP. looks around. thoughts wanders off into the clouds and shudders.

OMG. i found out today. that this someone is dating that other someone. and when they were first friends, i told everyone they were gonna end up together. and no one believed me. now look who's laughin!!!??!?!?! although, i am sad that no one told me. i'm ELATED THAT THEIR FINALLLY TOGETHER!!!!!!! she needs someone better that the last one and he needs a female part to his life! LOL. hahahaha. hehe. hmm. i'm happy.

okay. gtg now. dinner awaits.

thinking and wondering and waiting,
joyce

HELLOOOOOO! xD

hello beautiful!

this is my new blog! wanna now my past events go to mylifeofrandom.blogspot.com.

so, today was fairly interesting. i went to school, sat from Kh paper. throughout the paper i felt fine. then, after the paper, there was more like fourty minutes left for me to sleep, so well, i did. hahaha! but when i woke up, i could taste vomit in the back of my throat. really. i was this close to puking on either joshua, fostine or marco. hahahhaha. i would really like to puke on marco. annoying lil pest. hahahahaah!

madam hiew just took one look at me and said: "you look sick! GO HOME!" took out her hp and said: 'call you mom now!' i was like: erm okay. called my mom and within five minutes she came. I thank God we live nearby school! ahhaha!

went home. had some food. went to sleep. woke up an hour later by my mom asking me to study. didnt reply. instead, i went back to sleep. call me ungrateful but i really needed sleep. i woke up and did three hours of malay. was happy. came online for music and facebook. well, and to do this new blog. haha.

i think i'm getting closer to him now. although, i'm not one of those girls who fantasize bout their crushes. i think i have a shot. but then again, maybe not. prob never will. nah.

anyways, can't wait for saturday. its gonna be a busy busy day!!!! hehehe!

sometimes its my heart i can't control,
Joyce