IT IS FINALLY DECEMBER!
the month that brings a smile to almost everyone's face. the presents. the joy. the warmth. the memories.
with high school behind me, I can truly say that it's been one HELL of a ride. the ups outnumber the downs and I truly thank God for all the blessings in life.
I thank Him for placing beautifully talented and warm people in my life. Blessing me daily with His grace and giving me opportunities of a lifetime. I thank Him for my family and how we've grown so much stronger as a family this year.
2011 has been a great year. I managed to do so much that I set out to do and I even picked up some lessons that only a handful will ever even comprehend. For that, I am truly blessed and grateful.
For friendships, I learnt that in life, no one will stay by your side forever. from time to time, they will leave. for you to grow and for them to grow as well. Change is forever. nothing remains the same.
For love, being single has its perks. there isn't the constant fear of falling out of love. there is no doubts in your partner because he or she is nonexistent. hahaha. and the best of all, you need not worry so much about anyone else but yourself :) and that's a huge enough job on its own.
For life, I've learned that a huge part of it depends on you. it's not about luck. i mean yeah that too. but like. it's a minor part. the huge part is in all the decisions you make. every single one. from the moment you wake up and get out of bed, to the moment your head hits the pillow 16 hours later. it all depends on the in betweens and the side lines.
most importantly, I learned that life is selfish. in the end, the only person that really matters in life. is you. the fairytales about how in life, your significant other is the only person who truly matters is just that. a fairytale. i'm not saying that it's not possible. it's just rare. in the cold dark and very harsh world today, its each man for his own. and in my case, woman :)
but i am happy. i truly know who my real friends are. who are the people who will stick with me thick and thin. I know that despite distance and time, how long its been since we last talked, or how hard it is to communicate (e.g: one half asleep, the other completely awake), that the bond remains solid as steel. that we were able to talk about anything and everything. that we were able to laugh and cry our way through the year. that despite everything else in life, we still managed to turn to each other for that smile and a simple hug.
I'm glad. really glad. and I hope you are happy with 2011 too.
and even if it was a truly crappy year, like you stepped on shit three times in the same day, or your phone was so crappy you were desolate for days, or you went through the worst relationship anyone could ever dream of, that you take it in stride :) LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, YOU ARE STILL ALIVE OKAY. you have friends. you have family. you have a roof over your noggin. you still have clothes. OH AND DONT FORGET ZE FOOD. hahaha.
smile. thats when you look best :)
Love,
joyceeeeee
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
the essay i wrote.
Walking out of the cinema, she laughed along with her friends. Most of them were mocking how the movie line was so predictable. It always started of with the pretty girl being the villain, the handsome boy who was the conquest and the ugly girl who was being bullied by the pretty girl. It had to also end with the handsome boy falling for the ugly girl. Their laughter was short lived as their own thoughts consumed them. Was the plot really so funny and predictable or was it a relatable dream?
She wasn’t an outstanding beauty nor was she hideous; she was your typical plain Jane. Amongst her friends, she hardly stood out. In fact, the boys would usually always pick her prettier and slimmer friends. It was not like her to shy away from the lime light, but she didn’t hog it either. So while everyone around her was busy with their current beaus’, she simply stayed single.
She simply didn’t believe in love. She had plenty of male friends and the occasional interested admirers whom which she would convince to stay just friends. She knew friendship was far more valuable than teenage love. Her friends called her pessimistic but she knew she was just being realistic.
It all stemmed from her parents’ failed marriage. They were high school sweethearts and dated a decade before actually tying the big fat knot of love and commitment. Twenty five years later, they were bitter and divorced. She knew well enough that they once loved each other very much. It scarred her nonetheless. It scared her that the woman, who was once her strong confident mother, crying night and day in the shock and loss of a love once shared, could be her. It scared her that loving someone could be so utterly painful.
Friday night was always a busy night for the campus diner. She walked in with her notes and scouted for an empty table. Lady luck was on her side as a love infused couple walked out hand in hand was from a corner table.
As she settled down comfortably, a tall guy came to clear her table. As their eyes met, recognition flashed before them. She felt a stir in her heart as it skipped a beat. He flashed a smile with those eyes and that iron clad armor surrounding her heart melted. He was the leading achiever in the Law course. He was also rumored to be the bachelor no girl could get. As she snapped out of her thoughts, she cleared her throat and uttered a hello that was certainly too high pitched.
As he took her order of French toast and coffee, they made polite conversation. She knew he was simply being friendly but something urged her to ask him along for a drink. He politely declined due to the fact he was still on shift. Blushing a dark shade of red, she smiled and quickly looked away.
That night, after the buzz of the crowd died away, there they sat, under the lighting of fluorescence with the music of the late Elvis playing softly in the back ground, the comfort of velvet cushions and fries, she realized that she was just as much of a hopeless romantic as he was. Ashamed with this new revelation, she listened silently and intently as he unraveled the explanation of his bachelor status. He simply explained that there wasn’t a girl yet in his life that could amaze and shake him to the core. She smiled a shy smile as that small truth sent shivers down her spine.
Slivers of the shade red, blue and purple intertwined with the ball of fire as it immersed itself into the Caribbean Sea, as she sat there feet crossed under her. The memory of them and how they first met lies fresh in her mind. Almost a decade ago was when they first met. A smile spread slowly across her face as she flashed through their time spent together.
He was the first of many to break through her wall. He stayed by her despite her insistent pushes and shoves. He listened and said nothing while she opened up slowly. He held her close and tight as she cried in front of him for the first time. He spent every moment of his free time making her smile and laugh. He carefully arranged to spend their Valentine’s Day together. He thoughtfully picked out presents for her and her family as if they were his own. Each moment they spent together was cherished abundantly. As she twirled her hair around her fingers, she realized he was the epitome of every girl’s dream.
Strong and tan arms snaked around her waist tightly from the back, and a laugh broke from her as she instantly felt the rich feeling of love spread through her. His love was ever so blissful to her. As he kissed her hair and whispered sweet nothings to her, she turned to take a look into those emerald blue green eyes speckled with gold. Those eyes that bore into her soul, those eyes that still stared her down while she tried to hide, those eyes which loved her every insecurity inside and out. Those eyes which mesmerized her from the first look.
A decade later, it was blissful and sincere love which was why this careful daughter of a careless man dared to love. Through thick and thin, medical and law school, that he swore to love her forever and always. And in him and God, she learned to have faith and believe. To believe in the one thing she swore she never believed in. Love.
sometimes i believe that perhaps one day i'll have it all just like this. but i think i know better than that. :) the truth doesnt just hurt. it scars you. and as it scars you, it makes you do silly things. it can make you say and do things you will regret forever but know it's all too late. sometimes with family and friends, you unknowingly hurt them and are hurt and you do things in a haste of emotions. but somehow or rather, you always make amends. but this time idk. i dont wanna watch you go down this road anymore. i want you to change. i dont wanna see you suffer anymore. thats all i pray about and want for you. is it that bad?
Friday, August 12, 2011
society and it's screw ups
you think our country is bad? you complain all about the screwed up education system, and our rich politicians and the bad cops. well i'd really rather that than to what i see in every country as it is. Egypt's constant riot at the loss of its government ruling. The psycho guy who killed like 80 Norwegian people at a youth conference. America's rising debt and the downfall on the rest of the world's economy including ours mind you.
but what truly made me sick. is this video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNh-fTv1Gm8
it's the malaysian guy who got mugged. people actually came up to him in the riot PRETENDING TO ASK HIM IF HE BLOODY IS OKAY. but were actually ROBBING HIM! they came from behind and were all concerned about him when they just opened up his bag and look into his jacket and back pocket. how bout that.
that's the epitome of getting kicked in the gut while you're down.
and the dude is actually gonna finish his studies there. he sure is one hell of a tough guy.
I know. every nation has it's glory moments and it's downfalls. but the downfall for britain and this riot. it's true nonsense. it's simply hooligans running free on the streets and asking for what exactly? NO CAUSE, NO SLOGAN, NO MESSAGE, NO MOTIVE. whatsoever. it's simply a outcry for attention and people just acting up without a cause. looting and breaking things down and burning shops. it's all just a bunch of crap. but this particular crap is hurting the entire nation as well as it's economy and it's image in the world's view. it's been going on for days. and there isnt a sign of slowing down. so when exactly is this bullshyt gonna end?
everyone in the world is hitting an all time low. but no one needs more trouble. so why cant people just start working towards a better future than to do nothing but complain of the current? If people actually really truly want a change, they should start working towards it. not causing riots and holding violent demonstrations. thats just pure idiocracy.
sometimes people really really really do not realise the good things they have until it really is all too late and gone.
joyce
but what truly made me sick. is this video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNh-fTv1Gm8
it's the malaysian guy who got mugged. people actually came up to him in the riot PRETENDING TO ASK HIM IF HE BLOODY IS OKAY. but were actually ROBBING HIM! they came from behind and were all concerned about him when they just opened up his bag and look into his jacket and back pocket. how bout that.
that's the epitome of getting kicked in the gut while you're down.
and the dude is actually gonna finish his studies there. he sure is one hell of a tough guy.
I know. every nation has it's glory moments and it's downfalls. but the downfall for britain and this riot. it's true nonsense. it's simply hooligans running free on the streets and asking for what exactly? NO CAUSE, NO SLOGAN, NO MESSAGE, NO MOTIVE. whatsoever. it's simply a outcry for attention and people just acting up without a cause. looting and breaking things down and burning shops. it's all just a bunch of crap. but this particular crap is hurting the entire nation as well as it's economy and it's image in the world's view. it's been going on for days. and there isnt a sign of slowing down. so when exactly is this bullshyt gonna end?
everyone in the world is hitting an all time low. but no one needs more trouble. so why cant people just start working towards a better future than to do nothing but complain of the current? If people actually really truly want a change, they should start working towards it. not causing riots and holding violent demonstrations. thats just pure idiocracy.
sometimes people really really really do not realise the good things they have until it really is all too late and gone.
joyce
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
worth the fight
Recently, I've been talking to alot of my classmates and i realised. we all face difficult situations in life. some worse than others in terms of difficulty. but to each their own, you cant say anyone's life is easier than your own or harder than your own. you aren't them nor they you. everyone's got their own ups and downs. and we all have our own expectations and realities. dreams and failures. and somehow i feel reassured. i guess. i'm just normal in terms of being a teenager going through potholes and getting up and moving on. or learning how to.
dreams and ambitions. parents have this expectation of their children. some dream of just a peaceful and harmonious life for their kids. other dream of the better life in terms of financial stability. some dream of the jobs they pray their children enter into. but as human as we are, we all have flaws. and occasionally, we overlook the fact that children have the right to choose. we all do. it's a basic human right. to choose and have a choice and opinion on life. our life. our paths to pave and our dreams to recreate. and yes i do not deny the fact that having our parents there to guide us and lead us and give their opinions and spare us from falling out or falling into the wrong paths. but it does not mean you dictate our every move and decision on life. perhaaps you say as a teenager our mental capability isn't as mature or experienced enough to make the right ones. but it is our choice nonetheless to make those mistakes. life is all about learning and how far in our life can you really protect a child from mistakes. how can they learn in that manner.
you cant force a child to be an engineer or a architect or a doctor. it is true that SPM is the big leap unto where our lives will lead and how it'll turn out. but the constant pressure and talks on who we should be instead of just living as who we already are is just utterly uncomfortable. we're clearly capable of knowing the truth on life and how hard it is. we know. years have passed, and slowly but surely, most of us have matured and learnt the truth on work and life. the constant lectures on how to be a PROPER person can be told. but not repeatedly. and what is the definition of a proper person? how can you define a person? people change daily. you cant keep it a square. life's a journey. we're merely a boat in the wild ocean.
sometimes i wonder. if this is all a test. a test of patience. of faith. of hope. of prayer. and of my strength. if it is. i hope i do pull through. i hope i live through all this and look back and see strength. i hope i look back and realise you weren't a missed chance. perhaps only a matter of bad timing. really bad timing.
i miss the feeling of being hugged and held safe.
joyce
dreams and ambitions. parents have this expectation of their children. some dream of just a peaceful and harmonious life for their kids. other dream of the better life in terms of financial stability. some dream of the jobs they pray their children enter into. but as human as we are, we all have flaws. and occasionally, we overlook the fact that children have the right to choose. we all do. it's a basic human right. to choose and have a choice and opinion on life. our life. our paths to pave and our dreams to recreate. and yes i do not deny the fact that having our parents there to guide us and lead us and give their opinions and spare us from falling out or falling into the wrong paths. but it does not mean you dictate our every move and decision on life. perhaaps you say as a teenager our mental capability isn't as mature or experienced enough to make the right ones. but it is our choice nonetheless to make those mistakes. life is all about learning and how far in our life can you really protect a child from mistakes. how can they learn in that manner.
you cant force a child to be an engineer or a architect or a doctor. it is true that SPM is the big leap unto where our lives will lead and how it'll turn out. but the constant pressure and talks on who we should be instead of just living as who we already are is just utterly uncomfortable. we're clearly capable of knowing the truth on life and how hard it is. we know. years have passed, and slowly but surely, most of us have matured and learnt the truth on work and life. the constant lectures on how to be a PROPER person can be told. but not repeatedly. and what is the definition of a proper person? how can you define a person? people change daily. you cant keep it a square. life's a journey. we're merely a boat in the wild ocean.
sometimes i wonder. if this is all a test. a test of patience. of faith. of hope. of prayer. and of my strength. if it is. i hope i do pull through. i hope i live through all this and look back and see strength. i hope i look back and realise you weren't a missed chance. perhaps only a matter of bad timing. really bad timing.
i miss the feeling of being hugged and held safe.
joyce
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
that fallen feeling of being numb
I think the worst part of trusting a person is not knowing when it might be wrong. Knowing that it was a choice you made that turned out to be a mistake entirely made by you and you alone. Looking back, i made one too many of those mistakes. I trusted people I should have known all along would hurt me. People who already seemed shady to me and yet I plundered through thinking I could change them. There's this chinese saying that. Moving mountains are easier than changing human behaviour. I totally believe that.
Being a parent is the toughest job ever. fo sho. I mean. you not only have to care for a person, supply their needs, you also have to look out for them, protect them from harm and be a good role model to them. and you're only human. that means you'll have flaws. but does that mean that you should be forgiven repeatedly for the same mistakes that you made to your children? does that give the parent the higher hand of hurting them without the child's voice being heard out? i mean. if we have our opinions, we deserve to voice them out right? especially when it concerns our being? it's basic human rights. we were not born into the world to be shot down daily and bore down by your anger.
no words. the tears cant even make room for more. i miss that feeling. the endless feeling of being loved. cherished. i miss it alot now. i dont miss it from any particular person. but i miss it in general. now that i see alot of it going around. i miss it alot.
thanks to marco! I've got all the songs i've wanted in my phone. love that boy although he can be suchhhhh a blur person at times. and he says the weirdest things. :) informative tho.
don't make promises you can't keep. don't act like you're strong when you're all broken inside. you're only human. and i like you for being human okay.
follow if you wanna. cause i wont wait around.
joyce
Being a parent is the toughest job ever. fo sho. I mean. you not only have to care for a person, supply their needs, you also have to look out for them, protect them from harm and be a good role model to them. and you're only human. that means you'll have flaws. but does that mean that you should be forgiven repeatedly for the same mistakes that you made to your children? does that give the parent the higher hand of hurting them without the child's voice being heard out? i mean. if we have our opinions, we deserve to voice them out right? especially when it concerns our being? it's basic human rights. we were not born into the world to be shot down daily and bore down by your anger.
no words. the tears cant even make room for more. i miss that feeling. the endless feeling of being loved. cherished. i miss it alot now. i dont miss it from any particular person. but i miss it in general. now that i see alot of it going around. i miss it alot.
thanks to marco! I've got all the songs i've wanted in my phone. love that boy although he can be suchhhhh a blur person at times. and he says the weirdest things. :) informative tho.
don't make promises you can't keep. don't act like you're strong when you're all broken inside. you're only human. and i like you for being human okay.
follow if you wanna. cause i wont wait around.
joyce
Friday, May 6, 2011
sway to the rhythm of love
have you ever wanted something so bad but the moment you've got it, someone else comes along and ruins it for you? i'm having a few of those moments this year.
State Level English Debate. haha. yeah i made it all the way to state. haha. after two and a half years worth of reading, talking, researching, typing and writing, not to mention hours of fighting and insults, we finally made it that far. to be honest, competition in KK is crazy tough. Each school team knows the opponent teams. and that makes it that much harder and more competitive. The phrase 'ignorance is bliss' is where it really shows. ahahah. unfortunately, after someone's blunder of anger, we lost to Sung Siew, Sandakan. the only thing i can say is that we had a really good learning experience. and to those of you who are from Sung Siew and reading this, i have to say that your school put up an awesome fight against us. and i wish your team the best. really.
Love. haha. yeah i'm actually gonna talk about it again without mentioning which one. it makes your people who actually read this wonder who. pffft. so busy body. :P haha. anyhow. well, to be perfectly honest, i'm jealous of her to the max. i know she's never had one. but it doesn't give her any right to leave you hanging every time. but since you're so hung up on her. go ahead. she comes from a place reknown for pain and nothing less than six degrees of drama anyway. aside from him, there's you. gawd. you say i'm your number one girl. then what is she? my replacement? seriously? my guess is you really dont know what love is and you think by being a fwb is cooler. haha. you have no clue do you? and then there's you. at first, it was really awesome. the way we'd flirt all day and night. but now it's getting really weird. are we really just like flirt buddies? or is there something more? and are you game for more?
friends. to be perfectly honest, i like the way things are now. i get to jump all over place. and the lalas aren't too bad at the moment. i mean aside from the occasional miscommunication. ahahaha. i know you guys have some twisted friendship going on. but to be honest, from the outside looking in, it's hella lot worse. you guys hurt each other all the time with no apologies at all. and i see tears and disappoint but of course neither sides will fess up so why bother right? but still. its sad to see such friendships going on. it seems kinda fake right now. not that i'm sayin any of you are, you guys are really awesome individuals. but i do see some of you getting hurt. and it's saddening really.
dreams. i think we all should wake up and realise we've got only ourselves to help us. us and God. and no one else. everyone else in our else will be temporary. i know i sound evil saying that. it's as if i'm ungrateful but it's true. everyone else will use and throw us away. i'm getting it everyday. but i just smile. our dreams are up to us to make happen. depending on anyone else is just a huge mistake. really. our friends are only there for us to help guide us. not make our pathways. thats for us to make happen.
yes i'm in the sad angry jealous mode. hahah. deal with it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=herLMUn2-U0 dance crazy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc makes me hopeful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fzv3BfO0Xc makes me smile
sometimes the truth is ironic
joyce
State Level English Debate. haha. yeah i made it all the way to state. haha. after two and a half years worth of reading, talking, researching, typing and writing, not to mention hours of fighting and insults, we finally made it that far. to be honest, competition in KK is crazy tough. Each school team knows the opponent teams. and that makes it that much harder and more competitive. The phrase 'ignorance is bliss' is where it really shows. ahahah. unfortunately, after someone's blunder of anger, we lost to Sung Siew, Sandakan. the only thing i can say is that we had a really good learning experience. and to those of you who are from Sung Siew and reading this, i have to say that your school put up an awesome fight against us. and i wish your team the best. really.
Love. haha. yeah i'm actually gonna talk about it again without mentioning which one. it makes your people who actually read this wonder who. pffft. so busy body. :P haha. anyhow. well, to be perfectly honest, i'm jealous of her to the max. i know she's never had one. but it doesn't give her any right to leave you hanging every time. but since you're so hung up on her. go ahead. she comes from a place reknown for pain and nothing less than six degrees of drama anyway. aside from him, there's you. gawd. you say i'm your number one girl. then what is she? my replacement? seriously? my guess is you really dont know what love is and you think by being a fwb is cooler. haha. you have no clue do you? and then there's you. at first, it was really awesome. the way we'd flirt all day and night. but now it's getting really weird. are we really just like flirt buddies? or is there something more? and are you game for more?
friends. to be perfectly honest, i like the way things are now. i get to jump all over place. and the lalas aren't too bad at the moment. i mean aside from the occasional miscommunication. ahahaha. i know you guys have some twisted friendship going on. but to be honest, from the outside looking in, it's hella lot worse. you guys hurt each other all the time with no apologies at all. and i see tears and disappoint but of course neither sides will fess up so why bother right? but still. its sad to see such friendships going on. it seems kinda fake right now. not that i'm sayin any of you are, you guys are really awesome individuals. but i do see some of you getting hurt. and it's saddening really.
dreams. i think we all should wake up and realise we've got only ourselves to help us. us and God. and no one else. everyone else in our else will be temporary. i know i sound evil saying that. it's as if i'm ungrateful but it's true. everyone else will use and throw us away. i'm getting it everyday. but i just smile. our dreams are up to us to make happen. depending on anyone else is just a huge mistake. really. our friends are only there for us to help guide us. not make our pathways. thats for us to make happen.
yes i'm in the sad angry jealous mode. hahah. deal with it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=herLMUn2-U0 dance crazy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc makes me hopeful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fzv3BfO0Xc makes me smile
sometimes the truth is ironic
joyce
Friday, April 15, 2011
i'll stay running from love
i think. winning isn't the most valuable aspect in any competition. i think the knowledge gained is more valuable ever. but of course, winning is the icing on top of the cake. hahah. that i cannot deny.
i think it's ridiculous when a group of friends makes fun of a person till tears and yet the person who cries is totally innocent and has to apologize. Apologize for what exactly? i'm not too sure what happened. but i think from what all the bystanders told me. and what happened the following day after. that's a bit much. too much for any normal person. it' shocking really. are you really who you say you are? was it really a mistake or just a one off or was that really all four of you being your true selves? if so, then i think you should think about it for a while. did that person deserve that kind of treatment? really?
is she really The One for you? think about it. if all your friends, guys and girls, have something about her which they dislike, something which repulses them, something which makes them think twice about being around, why would you still go for her? she left you. twice for another man. she cut you off from your friends. she makes you suffer. what good has she actually brought into your life? you currently have little friends left. even your childhood friends dont want to pick up your calls anymore. doesn't that make you realise that she's no good for you? we aren't being judgemental here. this is the truth. she's just using you. she's treating you like shit too. and you love her? really?
you think you're so smart being a bitch to everyone. watch out man. Karma's a bigger bitch than you are. and i hear she hates bitches like you.
trying too hard don't you think? he's mine. you can try. but you'll only fall flat on your face okay. so good luck!
you think i like you? puh-lease. you're shorter than me. disgusting to the max dont you think? and the fact you're a player? just shows you're public property more than ever.
good luck getting out of trouble this time.
joyce
i think it's ridiculous when a group of friends makes fun of a person till tears and yet the person who cries is totally innocent and has to apologize. Apologize for what exactly? i'm not too sure what happened. but i think from what all the bystanders told me. and what happened the following day after. that's a bit much. too much for any normal person. it' shocking really. are you really who you say you are? was it really a mistake or just a one off or was that really all four of you being your true selves? if so, then i think you should think about it for a while. did that person deserve that kind of treatment? really?
is she really The One for you? think about it. if all your friends, guys and girls, have something about her which they dislike, something which repulses them, something which makes them think twice about being around, why would you still go for her? she left you. twice for another man. she cut you off from your friends. she makes you suffer. what good has she actually brought into your life? you currently have little friends left. even your childhood friends dont want to pick up your calls anymore. doesn't that make you realise that she's no good for you? we aren't being judgemental here. this is the truth. she's just using you. she's treating you like shit too. and you love her? really?
you think you're so smart being a bitch to everyone. watch out man. Karma's a bigger bitch than you are. and i hear she hates bitches like you.
trying too hard don't you think? he's mine. you can try. but you'll only fall flat on your face okay. so good luck!
you think i like you? puh-lease. you're shorter than me. disgusting to the max dont you think? and the fact you're a player? just shows you're public property more than ever.
good luck getting out of trouble this time.
joyce
Sunday, March 27, 2011
forgetting someone
So sorry for not updating. haha. Life got in the way. everything from IU day to tests and then debate.
I think most people would think that guys get over girls much faster and they seem to apply to every single guy. but i think you should know that not all guys are major jerks. not all of em are heartless bastards. i'm not saying there aren't jerks and bastards around. but i am saying that. not all males are brainless and heartless.
i know some guys who are downright sweet and have a heart of gold but have the tendency of falling for the girl that's a total player too. not to mention greedy and a user. i know a guy who had his heartbroken and just chose not to fall in love anymore till he's done with his twenties. sad but true.
But it is awful when you know that the other person has forgotten you. replaced you. ouch right? defo. fo sho homey.
some people have the tendency to take nothing seriously. everything they put into mind is taken lightly. that way when they leave, they aren't hurt as much. it can be both curse and blessing. they love quick but they also fall out of it quick. their always having the constant need to find someone to love. it's sad to watch when you know why.
being replaced? it hurts. cause it's only natural to compare yourself to them. thinking it's your fault. thinking you weren't good enough. but you've definitely got to stop yourself right there. if he left you, he must have his reason. if she left you, same shizz. if he/she can find someone new, why can't you? unless of course there's only the three of you left in the world. if it isn't so, then wakeup. move on.
easier said than done? i know right. but life's a constant struggle. it's a battle. but you've got to get all of yourself together to fight back. if he's still a friend to you, then take it. but dont hold him to heart anymore. just treat him like any other friend. start seeing your other friends. by that i dont mean dating other people right away. i mean try being single! go out with a bunch of friends and go crazy in the malls! just have fun being single. flirt with strangers. dance with your girlies or guys!
just know that you aren't alone. even if you think you've got the worst situation in the world. you dont. you're fine. or you will be.
for some reason, i miss talking to you. and i hope you'll call me back asap okay pluto. thanks.
just thinking,
joyce
I think most people would think that guys get over girls much faster and they seem to apply to every single guy. but i think you should know that not all guys are major jerks. not all of em are heartless bastards. i'm not saying there aren't jerks and bastards around. but i am saying that. not all males are brainless and heartless.
i know some guys who are downright sweet and have a heart of gold but have the tendency of falling for the girl that's a total player too. not to mention greedy and a user. i know a guy who had his heartbroken and just chose not to fall in love anymore till he's done with his twenties. sad but true.
But it is awful when you know that the other person has forgotten you. replaced you. ouch right? defo. fo sho homey.
some people have the tendency to take nothing seriously. everything they put into mind is taken lightly. that way when they leave, they aren't hurt as much. it can be both curse and blessing. they love quick but they also fall out of it quick. their always having the constant need to find someone to love. it's sad to watch when you know why.
being replaced? it hurts. cause it's only natural to compare yourself to them. thinking it's your fault. thinking you weren't good enough. but you've definitely got to stop yourself right there. if he left you, he must have his reason. if she left you, same shizz. if he/she can find someone new, why can't you? unless of course there's only the three of you left in the world. if it isn't so, then wakeup. move on.
easier said than done? i know right. but life's a constant struggle. it's a battle. but you've got to get all of yourself together to fight back. if he's still a friend to you, then take it. but dont hold him to heart anymore. just treat him like any other friend. start seeing your other friends. by that i dont mean dating other people right away. i mean try being single! go out with a bunch of friends and go crazy in the malls! just have fun being single. flirt with strangers. dance with your girlies or guys!
just know that you aren't alone. even if you think you've got the worst situation in the world. you dont. you're fine. or you will be.
for some reason, i miss talking to you. and i hope you'll call me back asap okay pluto. thanks.
just thinking,
joyce
Sunday, February 27, 2011
have you ever.....
Have you ever met that person where they seem to be perfect?
And i'm not only talking about the looks alone. I'm talking about the way they live and are around people. it seems so perfect. like everything's in control and their perfectly happy and satisfied with everything. have you ever?
Have you ever believed that they were truly perfect? truly so ever blessed?
I have.
Have you ever thought you could trust someone with all your heart? only to find it lying beneath all the lies they've spun out upon you?
I think it's happened to me a couple times too many.
sometimes i look at you, and i wonder to myself. how is it possible i trusted you?
that sheer layer of lies.
everyone thinks you're great. but i think i know now. you just hide it wayyyy better than everyone else.
i know you're reading this and you're probably wondering if i'm hurt or angry. i'm not.
i've just realised. brilliant liars like you. are people i'd never trust. and you're not the type i'd recommend to anyone either.
your technique gives me something to admire and respect on. your approach of one to one is pure genius. it has that paradox of lies between the lines of honesty. something i have yet to master.
you've got my attention. the only scary part of this situation is me actually being hooked on you.
kiss me and take away the pain,
joyce
And i'm not only talking about the looks alone. I'm talking about the way they live and are around people. it seems so perfect. like everything's in control and their perfectly happy and satisfied with everything. have you ever?
Have you ever believed that they were truly perfect? truly so ever blessed?
I have.
Have you ever thought you could trust someone with all your heart? only to find it lying beneath all the lies they've spun out upon you?
I think it's happened to me a couple times too many.
sometimes i look at you, and i wonder to myself. how is it possible i trusted you?
that sheer layer of lies.
everyone thinks you're great. but i think i know now. you just hide it wayyyy better than everyone else.
i know you're reading this and you're probably wondering if i'm hurt or angry. i'm not.
i've just realised. brilliant liars like you. are people i'd never trust. and you're not the type i'd recommend to anyone either.
your technique gives me something to admire and respect on. your approach of one to one is pure genius. it has that paradox of lies between the lines of honesty. something i have yet to master.
you've got my attention. the only scary part of this situation is me actually being hooked on you.
kiss me and take away the pain,
joyce
Friday, February 25, 2011
i aint the girl next door
the song i'm sorta hooked on:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-3xUmVIpy8&feature=related
my biggest pet peeve. when people just ASSUME they know everything about you. they have a reason for everything about you and every act you do. that's my biggest pet peeve. people saying "i know what you mean" when you aren't even done with your sentence. please just shut the f*** up and listen. like seriously. you do not live in my brain nor do you even understand nor live with my heart so can you just live your own life and leave mine alone!
it boggles me at why you would spread rumours about me when i've never met you! i didn't even know you existed. like really. i'm not pissed. it's more like. i'm puzzled and really frustrated why you would talk to people about me and tell stories about me when i dont know you. at all. and when i actually talk to you, you act all scared and like you're so innocent. i'll tell you what you actually are. you're dumb. you're naive. and you're absolutely clueless on who i really am and what my thoughts are actually like. so if you really wanna know, ask me. actually be someone i know or perhaps someone significant enough to fecking leave an imprint on my memory. if you didn't leave one even though you've met me twice, sucks to be you then.
i find it awfully disgusting when people go around announcing to the world how close a friendship between a group of friends can be but how often those ties are broken. i mean. if you aren't that close with all of them, why bother telling people you are? why lie? what benefits do you gain? and if you guys are as close as you say you are, why are some of them coming to me and saying that you guys aren't talking? some of you are plain rude and cold? and if its so, why cant you guys talk things over? all this drama and how unnecessary it is and how it seriously is dumb puzzles me. and if you guys cant get shit done, you know something's gonna come and hit you.
i realize that my Tumblr, Youtube and my blog is definitely my venting place. it's the one place i come to when i'm done with studying and homework. to just vent and let everything out. regardless of whether i'm really tearing up or just downright angry. it soothes me. *smiles satisfyingly*
i miss the times where we could text all the time. where we'd continue every single morning from every late night. i miss you. but i guess once again my lips are sealed tight aren't they?
joyce
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-3xUmVIpy8&feature=related
my biggest pet peeve. when people just ASSUME they know everything about you. they have a reason for everything about you and every act you do. that's my biggest pet peeve. people saying "i know what you mean" when you aren't even done with your sentence. please just shut the f*** up and listen. like seriously. you do not live in my brain nor do you even understand nor live with my heart so can you just live your own life and leave mine alone!
it boggles me at why you would spread rumours about me when i've never met you! i didn't even know you existed. like really. i'm not pissed. it's more like. i'm puzzled and really frustrated why you would talk to people about me and tell stories about me when i dont know you. at all. and when i actually talk to you, you act all scared and like you're so innocent. i'll tell you what you actually are. you're dumb. you're naive. and you're absolutely clueless on who i really am and what my thoughts are actually like. so if you really wanna know, ask me. actually be someone i know or perhaps someone significant enough to fecking leave an imprint on my memory. if you didn't leave one even though you've met me twice, sucks to be you then.
i find it awfully disgusting when people go around announcing to the world how close a friendship between a group of friends can be but how often those ties are broken. i mean. if you aren't that close with all of them, why bother telling people you are? why lie? what benefits do you gain? and if you guys are as close as you say you are, why are some of them coming to me and saying that you guys aren't talking? some of you are plain rude and cold? and if its so, why cant you guys talk things over? all this drama and how unnecessary it is and how it seriously is dumb puzzles me. and if you guys cant get shit done, you know something's gonna come and hit you.
i realize that my Tumblr, Youtube and my blog is definitely my venting place. it's the one place i come to when i'm done with studying and homework. to just vent and let everything out. regardless of whether i'm really tearing up or just downright angry. it soothes me. *smiles satisfyingly*
i miss the times where we could text all the time. where we'd continue every single morning from every late night. i miss you. but i guess once again my lips are sealed tight aren't they?
joyce
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
wherever you may be.
to you, trying to act macho. trying to be someone else. it wont hide the fact you're lying to yourself more than everyone else. we all see through it. you're trying to be this person that none of us like. not your siblings not me not anybody. the people who are falling for you barely know the fact that love hurts and lust only lasts that long. and everyone in town knows you're the kiss and tell type. and yet they go ahead. why? simple. cause they have no dignity whatsoever. you're proud of it? yeah we know. you're filled with so much pride you fail to see.. the only person who you'll be hurt badly in the end is you.
it hurts to know the person you thought you could trust is a liar. a compulsive one. one that never says the same thing twice. constantly changing and never as loyal as they seem.
it hurts to know the person you thought you knew is someone you dont have a clue about. they say everything you want to hear. then walk away. leaving you wondering if you have any sense of rational at all.
it hurts to know when the person you truly care about is in pain. obviously right? wanna know what hurts more? when even the comfort and hugs you offer doesn't soothe them one bit.
it hurts when you hear everything you've been dying to hear, but it came just a little too late.
it hurts when the one you thought could fall in love with you was already in love with someone else.
it hurts when you think you have everything under control and you figure out everything's a lie.
it hurts when you think everyone's your friend and you find yourself alone and desolate in the middle of a crowd you thought were your friends.
what truly hurts? when you're in a relationship with someone who's in love with someone else, and you're too blind to see it.
what hurts more? trying to salvage a relationship thats already in ruins.
getting everyone to hate him/her doesnt help anyone at all.
finding yourself in one of the situation above?
wake up love. it isn't the end of the world. the world ends when you call it to.
your life is yours to make happen. you stop calling the shots? then everyone else calls them for you. your parents, your friends, your enemies, your worst nightmares and your life. by then, it'll all go spiraling out of control and the only people you ought to say sorry to are your parents because you positively owe them everything. every single bit of you. even if you dont like them any more than you dont like smelly socks.
luckily enough, life goes on. like it or not. it does. the world spins while you're lying down on the floor crying your lungs out. the days go on while you're fantasizing on your what ifs and what not. the nights go out faster while you lie in bed thinking of why not me.
Life is what you make of it. destiny, chance, fate is all up to you. it's all out there? are you willing to wake up, smell the coffee, the roses and the toast to see, smell, jump and grab them? are you willing to stop all the self pity and try it out for a chance? are you willing to get out of that hole you've gotten so comfortable in to just get a brand new shot at life? life and it's undeniable roller coaster ride?
i would. what you think i'm got the perfect life? FOR PETE'S SAKE, I DONT HAVE ONE. what you think i wrote all this from a book? from a song? from a movie? I WENT THROUGH MOST OF EM MYSELF. geez louise. I'M HUMAN TOO. urgh.
i've made tonnes of mistakes. mistakes i wish i could take back. mistakes i only wish i had never done. people i wish i had never hurt. words i wish i had not spoken of. chances i wish i had gotten hold of. mistakes that hurt more than i could possibly describe.
do i cry? do i regret? well, yeah.
but now, all i can do is avoid making the same mistake twice. all i can try to do is make them right no matter how hard or far off it may be. all i can try to do is make new opportunities for myself to be better and try harder at getting it right again.
is it possible? hell yeah. i've done several of them right.
the main question is. Do you want to make them right? Do you want to grab hold of your life again? Do you want to get up and get another chance at it?
if its yes, what the hell are you waiting for?
sometimes it's hard. sometimes it's tough. sometimes it downright cruel.
but you've gotta be better than everything else.
so go ahead. try it.
joyce
it hurts to know the person you thought you could trust is a liar. a compulsive one. one that never says the same thing twice. constantly changing and never as loyal as they seem.
it hurts to know the person you thought you knew is someone you dont have a clue about. they say everything you want to hear. then walk away. leaving you wondering if you have any sense of rational at all.
it hurts to know when the person you truly care about is in pain. obviously right? wanna know what hurts more? when even the comfort and hugs you offer doesn't soothe them one bit.
it hurts when you hear everything you've been dying to hear, but it came just a little too late.
it hurts when the one you thought could fall in love with you was already in love with someone else.
it hurts when you think you have everything under control and you figure out everything's a lie.
it hurts when you think everyone's your friend and you find yourself alone and desolate in the middle of a crowd you thought were your friends.
what truly hurts? when you're in a relationship with someone who's in love with someone else, and you're too blind to see it.
what hurts more? trying to salvage a relationship thats already in ruins.
getting everyone to hate him/her doesnt help anyone at all.
finding yourself in one of the situation above?
wake up love. it isn't the end of the world. the world ends when you call it to.
your life is yours to make happen. you stop calling the shots? then everyone else calls them for you. your parents, your friends, your enemies, your worst nightmares and your life. by then, it'll all go spiraling out of control and the only people you ought to say sorry to are your parents because you positively owe them everything. every single bit of you. even if you dont like them any more than you dont like smelly socks.
luckily enough, life goes on. like it or not. it does. the world spins while you're lying down on the floor crying your lungs out. the days go on while you're fantasizing on your what ifs and what not. the nights go out faster while you lie in bed thinking of why not me.
Life is what you make of it. destiny, chance, fate is all up to you. it's all out there? are you willing to wake up, smell the coffee, the roses and the toast to see, smell, jump and grab them? are you willing to stop all the self pity and try it out for a chance? are you willing to get out of that hole you've gotten so comfortable in to just get a brand new shot at life? life and it's undeniable roller coaster ride?
i would. what you think i'm got the perfect life? FOR PETE'S SAKE, I DONT HAVE ONE. what you think i wrote all this from a book? from a song? from a movie? I WENT THROUGH MOST OF EM MYSELF. geez louise. I'M HUMAN TOO. urgh.
i've made tonnes of mistakes. mistakes i wish i could take back. mistakes i only wish i had never done. people i wish i had never hurt. words i wish i had not spoken of. chances i wish i had gotten hold of. mistakes that hurt more than i could possibly describe.
do i cry? do i regret? well, yeah.
but now, all i can do is avoid making the same mistake twice. all i can try to do is make them right no matter how hard or far off it may be. all i can try to do is make new opportunities for myself to be better and try harder at getting it right again.
is it possible? hell yeah. i've done several of them right.
the main question is. Do you want to make them right? Do you want to grab hold of your life again? Do you want to get up and get another chance at it?
if its yes, what the hell are you waiting for?
sometimes it's hard. sometimes it's tough. sometimes it downright cruel.
but you've gotta be better than everything else.
so go ahead. try it.
joyce
Thursday, February 10, 2011
when all you feel is the need to swing your fist forward
from troubled screams to chinese new year squeals to back to school bores.
In my opinion, their all just awfully insecure and irritatingly dumb. to put it simply. if you've got something to say, just say it and be done. to let it fester and continue hurting to make yourself happy? well, that just says something about your non existent conscience doesn't it? needless to say, we know who we are and we know exactly what we've said done and seen. and we've had more than enough. so, we're just gonna sit back, relax and watch as you walk on by screaming like the mad people we know you are. happy hunting!
my extended holidays. haha. there were moments where i wished i had gotten back to kk earlier and yet when it came to near end, i immediately insisted on extending my stay. oh the wonders of my brain. spending time with old friends and my family was a really nice thing to do after not seeing them in a while. i know this year i wont be seeing them anytime soon till after SPM. that scares me. their really supportive and really good at boosting me to study. urgh.
if you really knew what i thought of you, you'd prolly stand in a corner and cry. to be perfectly honest, i never understood why either. why i bothered lying. and keeping up the acts for so long. if and only if i had been perfectly honest with you that last night. i wouldnt have to still act for everyone to see and hear from me. i wouldnt have to keep everyone smiling but myself.
i wish i'd known you sooner. earlier. well, if it was possible, earlier than last year. but hell. i only got to know you at the end of last year. haha. the thought of you makes me smile. the things you say and the way you say it. everything just makes me laugh. you're so witty and smart. but oh wells. it'll be too complicated anyhow. i'll just take the friendship road once again. as always. well if i can control myself that is. hahahahaha.
homework almost done. studies done. movie loading. food? oops gotta look for that one. haha.
just when you thought you knew me. wrong. you never will. cause you're too blind to see your very own lies.
joyce
In my opinion, their all just awfully insecure and irritatingly dumb. to put it simply. if you've got something to say, just say it and be done. to let it fester and continue hurting to make yourself happy? well, that just says something about your non existent conscience doesn't it? needless to say, we know who we are and we know exactly what we've said done and seen. and we've had more than enough. so, we're just gonna sit back, relax and watch as you walk on by screaming like the mad people we know you are. happy hunting!
my extended holidays. haha. there were moments where i wished i had gotten back to kk earlier and yet when it came to near end, i immediately insisted on extending my stay. oh the wonders of my brain. spending time with old friends and my family was a really nice thing to do after not seeing them in a while. i know this year i wont be seeing them anytime soon till after SPM. that scares me. their really supportive and really good at boosting me to study. urgh.
if you really knew what i thought of you, you'd prolly stand in a corner and cry. to be perfectly honest, i never understood why either. why i bothered lying. and keeping up the acts for so long. if and only if i had been perfectly honest with you that last night. i wouldnt have to still act for everyone to see and hear from me. i wouldnt have to keep everyone smiling but myself.
i wish i'd known you sooner. earlier. well, if it was possible, earlier than last year. but hell. i only got to know you at the end of last year. haha. the thought of you makes me smile. the things you say and the way you say it. everything just makes me laugh. you're so witty and smart. but oh wells. it'll be too complicated anyhow. i'll just take the friendship road once again. as always. well if i can control myself that is. hahahahaha.
homework almost done. studies done. movie loading. food? oops gotta look for that one. haha.
just when you thought you knew me. wrong. you never will. cause you're too blind to see your very own lies.
joyce
Sunday, January 23, 2011
No tomorrow
after a couple of days with friends, i realise we can never truly keep our best friends forever.
there will be those moments when you meet someone. absolutely fantastic. where you meet a person you think you'd love. where you meet someone you just know you'll love to hate to love. hahaha. where you meet someone new and totally opposite yet connectable.
and yet, you know. you know they wont be there for you forever.
you get comfy around them. you tell them your thoughts.
but once in a while, if you're lucky enough, you get the chance to meet someone new. someone more brilliant than the last.
and if you've got lady luck on your side, love just might come pouring down on you too.
i hope you'll look my way a little more now.
joyce
there will be those moments when you meet someone. absolutely fantastic. where you meet a person you think you'd love. where you meet someone you just know you'll love to hate to love. hahaha. where you meet someone new and totally opposite yet connectable.
and yet, you know. you know they wont be there for you forever.
you get comfy around them. you tell them your thoughts.
but once in a while, if you're lucky enough, you get the chance to meet someone new. someone more brilliant than the last.
and if you've got lady luck on your side, love just might come pouring down on you too.
i hope you'll look my way a little more now.
joyce
the good old truth sets us all free
you acted as if you were her friend. you acted as if you were smart and totally worldly.
the truth is and always will be. you are nothing but a coward, nothing but a liar and nothing but a true sonovabeech.
first, you fooled us all. with your friendly attitude. i didn't like you but she convinced because she had already believed your lies.
today, we all see the truth. your entire family is a pack of wolves. lying, scheming and manipulating all the way.
the whole world knows of your lies.
you messed up once and you were lucky to survive without a hint of pain.
the real pain is knowing that the rest of the world will find out of your lies and evil doings.
i do hope you confess your sins and repent from them before it is truly too late.
you've lost all our trust. all our friendships.
this is just a warning.
take care all of you.
the truth is and always will be. you are nothing but a coward, nothing but a liar and nothing but a true sonovabeech.
first, you fooled us all. with your friendly attitude. i didn't like you but she convinced because she had already believed your lies.
today, we all see the truth. your entire family is a pack of wolves. lying, scheming and manipulating all the way.
the whole world knows of your lies.
you messed up once and you were lucky to survive without a hint of pain.
the real pain is knowing that the rest of the world will find out of your lies and evil doings.
i do hope you confess your sins and repent from them before it is truly too late.
you've lost all our trust. all our friendships.
this is just a warning.
take care all of you.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
A whole new year
So sorry dah-lings for not updating!
Three weeks into the new year of 2011 and i know it's going to be one hell of a ride!
Starting of with school, all new expectations and a whole new set of challenges, not to mention all the disappearances of my close friends!
Within a blink of an eye, it's about two weeks away from the Chinese New Year holidays! RED PACKETS HERE I COME~ and the best part! I'm going back to KL! gawsh. how i have missed that place. not to mention all my awesome mates there. :)
school has been a roller coaster. with this year being my final year, there is a whole new level of understanding to the meaning senior year. Us being the oldest of them all, and having no one else to refer nor run to, it's become a whole new challenge to be the best. not to mention the constant burden of knowing, SPM is just down the road from all our current raves.
you. you still hurt me everyday. i really do wonder if i ever understood you or did i just paint a nice picture of you for me to believe. i mean. how is it possible for you to be so cold? so freaking ruthless? I convinced everyone to be your friend and to be nice to you and not be fooled by your cold exterior. and now i'm the one facing this extremely cold exterior. I would understand your choice of not talking to me if it was a solid reason like i was mean to you or i lied to you or i back stabbed you or some drama like that. but for no reason whatsoever, me being left in the dark and treating me like i'm the bad person when the truth is the only person getting hurt is me is ENTIRELY unfair. the worst part of all is that i opened all the doors for you. and never have i gotten a solid thank you nor a smile. no hello nor goodbye. you ignore and avoid my presence. you said you wanted to be flexible you wanted a change you wanted new challenges. when did i ever stand in your way? and how come our friendship was the cost for all things new? i wouldn't have mind if we still talked or something. but being entirely closed off is something i cannot deal with. and something i cant get over with. you were my friend. now you're just someone i thought i knew. and the worst part is it hurts everytime i see you. and thats pretty much every day now isnt it.
interact club stuff. oh wow. the list of to do's is pretty darn long this year. i do hope we are as capable as we are ambitious. Merentas desa this saturday! We're selling rootbeer floats! :) absolutely love it! and then there's sports next saturday! and then i fly off to kl! woots. gotta prepare for our american IU day stall too. gotta audition for dancers! i hope we've got enough talent to accompany our ideas! and we've definitely got the wow factor for bakat this year! woots.
well, gotta go run now. clear my mind for better.
joyce
Three weeks into the new year of 2011 and i know it's going to be one hell of a ride!
Starting of with school, all new expectations and a whole new set of challenges, not to mention all the disappearances of my close friends!
Within a blink of an eye, it's about two weeks away from the Chinese New Year holidays! RED PACKETS HERE I COME~ and the best part! I'm going back to KL! gawsh. how i have missed that place. not to mention all my awesome mates there. :)
school has been a roller coaster. with this year being my final year, there is a whole new level of understanding to the meaning senior year. Us being the oldest of them all, and having no one else to refer nor run to, it's become a whole new challenge to be the best. not to mention the constant burden of knowing, SPM is just down the road from all our current raves.
you. you still hurt me everyday. i really do wonder if i ever understood you or did i just paint a nice picture of you for me to believe. i mean. how is it possible for you to be so cold? so freaking ruthless? I convinced everyone to be your friend and to be nice to you and not be fooled by your cold exterior. and now i'm the one facing this extremely cold exterior. I would understand your choice of not talking to me if it was a solid reason like i was mean to you or i lied to you or i back stabbed you or some drama like that. but for no reason whatsoever, me being left in the dark and treating me like i'm the bad person when the truth is the only person getting hurt is me is ENTIRELY unfair. the worst part of all is that i opened all the doors for you. and never have i gotten a solid thank you nor a smile. no hello nor goodbye. you ignore and avoid my presence. you said you wanted to be flexible you wanted a change you wanted new challenges. when did i ever stand in your way? and how come our friendship was the cost for all things new? i wouldn't have mind if we still talked or something. but being entirely closed off is something i cannot deal with. and something i cant get over with. you were my friend. now you're just someone i thought i knew. and the worst part is it hurts everytime i see you. and thats pretty much every day now isnt it.
interact club stuff. oh wow. the list of to do's is pretty darn long this year. i do hope we are as capable as we are ambitious. Merentas desa this saturday! We're selling rootbeer floats! :) absolutely love it! and then there's sports next saturday! and then i fly off to kl! woots. gotta prepare for our american IU day stall too. gotta audition for dancers! i hope we've got enough talent to accompany our ideas! and we've definitely got the wow factor for bakat this year! woots.
well, gotta go run now. clear my mind for better.
joyce
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