A whole new year

So sorry dah-lings for not updating!

Three weeks into the new year of 2011 and i know it's going to be one hell of a ride!

Starting of with school, all new expectations and a whole new set of challenges, not to mention all the disappearances of my close friends!

Within a blink of an eye, it's about two weeks away from the Chinese New Year holidays! RED PACKETS HERE I COME~ and the best part! I'm going back to KL! gawsh. how i have missed that place. not to mention all my awesome mates there. :)

school has been a roller coaster. with this year being my final year, there is a whole new level of understanding to the meaning senior year. Us being the oldest of them all, and having no one else to refer nor run to, it's become a whole new challenge to be the best. not to mention the constant burden of knowing, SPM is just down the road from all our current raves.

you. you still hurt me everyday. i really do wonder if i ever understood you or did i just paint a nice picture of you for me to believe. i mean. how is it possible for you to be so cold? so freaking ruthless? I convinced everyone to be your friend and to be nice to you and not be fooled by your cold exterior. and now i'm the one facing this extremely cold exterior. I would understand your choice of not talking to me if it was a solid reason like i was mean to you or i lied to you or i back stabbed you or some drama like that. but for no reason whatsoever, me being left in the dark and treating me like i'm the bad person when the truth is the only person getting hurt is me is ENTIRELY unfair. the worst part of all is that i opened all the doors for you. and never have i gotten a solid thank you nor a smile. no hello nor goodbye. you ignore and avoid my presence. you said you wanted to be flexible you wanted a change you wanted new challenges. when did i ever stand in your way? and how come our friendship was the cost for all things new? i wouldn't have mind if we still talked or something. but being entirely closed off is something i cannot deal with. and something i cant get over with. you were my friend. now you're just someone i thought i knew. and the worst part is it hurts everytime i see you. and thats pretty much every day now isnt it.

interact club stuff. oh wow. the list of to do's is pretty darn long this year. i do hope we are as capable as we are ambitious. Merentas desa this saturday! We're selling rootbeer floats! :) absolutely love it! and then there's sports next saturday! and then i fly off to kl! woots. gotta prepare for our american IU day stall too. gotta audition for dancers! i hope we've got enough talent to accompany our ideas! and we've definitely got the wow factor for bakat this year! woots.

well, gotta go run now. clear my mind for better.

joyce