Disappointments in Life

Have you ever waited upon a surprise?
Only to find that the surprise was a downpour of disappointments.

But that is Life. Expect the unexpected.

Most importantly, don't take anything in life for granted.

Cause even when you're at the lowest point in life, and you're stuck in a corner crying your heart out, the world keep's moving on.

The world is ever changing. so is Life and Love. so is Change.

My sister Char just got chicken pox. yes, she did. now she's all spotty and red. and she's quite emotional. I don't blame her. if i was twenty one and i got chicken pox, i wouldn't be able to sleep either.

Disappointment one: not having the guts.

If you know me, sometimes, i seem like such a jumper, I jump at all things opportunity. I'm quite the opportunist. I jump at chances and take leaps. at times, well most of the time, I fall right smack on my face. and i get up reaaaaal slow. at times, i fall safely on my feet with a huge smile on my face.

and then there are times where i don't do anything at all. All i know to do is stand and stare. Those moments are moments where i am consumed with fear and doubt. When the chance has passed, those doubts turn into regret. And all sorts of regret of what if's. What if i had jumped at the chance? What if i had taken the plunge?

Disappointment two: not having the chance at all

This disappointment is rather petty but is disappointment none the less. It could be someone ditching you for their partner, someone just ignoring you, your friend striking the lottery or someone having the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend.

Not having the chance at all meaning. the time it's actually being thought upon and not eternity. having to sit in front of a couple and smile at them with that thoughtful smile. hiding behind that smile is the thought of why isn't that me. when will that be me.

This disappointment doesn't last long. it's replaced with other thoughts on life and it's events.

Disappointment three : having it stolen

This disappointment may hurt the most. yup, having it stolen. It could be an idea, a giftcard, a friend or maybe even a sentence you were about to say. It hurts and it's something you want to telltale about but you know it'll ruin things further. Having someone steal it from you hurts you and leaves your mouth wide open. It's not a very beautiful sight. but it's one you make anyways.

this usually happens when you tell someone how excited you are about it and how fantabulous it is and you giggle about it. or when you have good intentions of sharing and then having it taken away. yup and you feel that sudden loss of words or thought. And all you can say is. oh. or the worst. you have to smile at that person and hold your head up high as if it never happened.

That disappointment is quite a shock. and it'll linger in your memory from time to time.

Life is like that sometimes. it's a roller coaster filled with shocks, screams, giggles and silence.

cant wait for you to be mine,
joyce