stupid me.

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving
~ boys like girls ft taylor swift

i miss you. but. i guess. i just never crossed your mind.
its okay cause i'll be leaving soon. and probably never see you again.
no worries. i wont be made a fool for love.

dont ask. you dont wanna know. its so pathetic and stupid.

joyce.

Karma is such a bitch.

i am going insane because of this lil thing called...

PMR ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

history is a bad thing. why learn from the past? it has no future.

Kemahiran hidup. Living skills. as if teaching us how to fix the toilet will help any of us in life.

Geography. Nah. thats my bad. i just am too ignorant to learn more of our oh so beautiful Malaysia.

I cannot. i cannot i cannot i cannot i cannot i cannot.
WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT.
FOR THISSSSSSSS TO BE OOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRR~

I really cannot. i just want it to be over and done with.

that is until the results come out. hehehehe.

till then. i only have one thing in mind. or mayb a couple of things.

relax and have tonsssssss of fun with my lovely lovely friends!!!!

hahahaha.

i miss going to youth! i miss jamie!!!! i miss jessica!!!! i misss vern!!!!!!! i miss frank!!!!! i miss everyone la!!!!!!!

i misssed the live auditions. darn.

and i dont even remember how i know vern. hahahaha. turns out i might have given her a awkward moment. and thats how i know her. or feel like i know her. ahahahahahahaha.

90210 is so much better now that LIAM is in it!!! he's soooooo cute la wei!

GossipGirl is so much better now that all my favourite bitches are back in it! For example, Vannessa is being a lil jealous! Dan is a bigger jerk! Chuck is being oh so simply mean! Blair is losing it but she's still in power! I love Serena! she's pretty, smart and oh so fabulous when she's mean! I am so in lurve with Nate! hahaah! he's so drop dead gorgeous! haha! Jenny is well. Jenny! but i like her style its so unique and quirky. but she makes trashy look so hawt! haha!

oh. i cant. wait. for. new moon. i am neither on team Jacob or team Edward. dont ask. am so torn in between these two teams. hahahahahaha.

okay. gotta run now!

love you~

sliding on breakable ground,
joyce

You have stolen my heart.

We watch the season
Pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart ~ Dashboard Confessionals

i love this song. for a silly reason. hehe. BLUEK.

i miss shopping. shoes. tops. jeans. jackets. argh~~~~

michelle seck~ we need to go shopping!!!!!!

hehe, joyce

that stupid feeling.

you know how when you fall for someone so hard and they just rip the feeling from you and leave you thinking what did i just do?. yeah. thats where i am. stupid me.

19 days to PMR. how awesome. got me going outta my mind.

i cant wait for it to be over.

then i can go out with my friends~~~

need to go watch movies with mal, sai, iffa, megan, stacey, law vuii, dina, yiing, marco, adrian, dylan and aaron.

need to go buy books with yiing, dina, stacey, dina, and mal.

need to buy new clothes with lia, mich, gina, cheryl and maddie.

need to just go to the beach and run around with all of the above.

need to take tons of pics with all of the above to post on facebook to announce my freedom.

oh and just to show some people who just love to pick on me that i'm taking the high road and not giving in to their petty grievances. XD

i think this year. i finally realize who i really am, what i'm good at and who my friends really are.

i am not a follower. i'm a leader. always was. and if you put me with another leader who wants to be leader, then you'll find that both of us will have a hard time having fun.

so i decided. i wont always be a leader. but i wont always be a follower.

i've learnt my lesson. i wont repeat the same mistakes.

live to learn,
joyce

my week.

My week in one word. no. make that a sentence.

Terribly awful yet amusing.

three papers came back. there's no A's involved. those are my three worst subjects. aiks. B's. its an improvement. From B-minus to a B plus. i'm working my butt off here.

i miss you. why havent you come round? did i do something wrong?

i miss you gma. aunty Ai Lian is right. the pain of losing someone doesnt come straight away, thats the initial shock of loss. it comes creeping in. seeping into your every thought. tugging at your every conscience. nudging at your work. touching your soul with softness. but all at once. when it comes. there's no avoiding. there's just you. you and your thoughts. your memories. your pain. nothing. nothing at all can soothe you. no one can comfort. no matter how right. how accurate their words may be. its your thoughts. your memories that will only carry you through that time. only You, God and your soul.

Its that stupid board in front of the school office thats scaring the crap outta us. counting down the days to our exams. as if we dont have that biological clock fixed in our head counting and constantly reminding us. constantly worrying us. now, you add on to that pressure with that dumb board. stupid people. argh.

i am not scared of you. because i have dont nothing wrong towards you. i walk with my head held high. if you say i'm proud, it just shows how much you dont know about me. and no. that isnt my fault. its yours. and for all the others, if you decide to follow her, i dont lose anything. in fact, i gain from your actions. it proves to me where your loyalty stands. and once you go out, i can go get new friends. better, smarter, and prettier or better looking. :D how wonderful life is.

it was a good week. but i can do better. and i will.

with my head held up high,
joyce

you treat me like just another stranger

hey you. yeah you.

listen up.

I Joyce Fong am not rich. i'm mediocre. not rich okay.

i dont insult people whom i havent spoken to in months.

i dont go round telling people i'm richer than you.

i dont like going round telling people bad stuff bout you.

i DONT go round telling people anything bout you.

what you do is none of my business.

its your mouth. you wanna blabber bad stuff bout me?

go ahead.

if it pleases you, and perhaps you'll shut up and wake up and smell the roses.

i dont need someone who's gonna act like a diva in my life.

you wanna be queen bee? hello? that title is so yesterdays news.

you still want it? take it.

no one wants it anyways.

oh and btw, i'm not scared of you. never was and never will.

i'm not mad at you either.

haha. in fact, its kinda funny. that you're mad at rumours.
ahahah~

i could laugh all day!

i had a great day! so thank you!

Joyce

In Loving Memory of Her.....

Can you name me a woman?
Stunningly beautiful and smart?
Not only was she beautiful outside,
her personality shone like the North Star.

Can you name me a woman?
Creative and talented?
Singing, dancing, sewing and cooking,
Her talents cannot be denied.

Can you name me a woman?
Loving and selfless!
She scolded out of love not grudge,
Stayed up throughout the night
Took care of us.

This amazing woman is my grandma. My late grandma.

And no woman is greater than she.